Past Three decades, a year and counting.....

Past three decades, a year and counting....

Where am I? Who am I? I finally found me! At last!
I sure do know what it was to cry endlessly, hope endlessly and give up.....
give up this marriage that has shown me all I have never realized I will see.

If it is a mistake to love and let go of love, then I want to make that big mistake.
I was dumb, deaf and blind of the truth I have been living with for the past years in my life.

Sure all these crap hurts, and makes me numb, callous, forget who I am for a moment then fight with myself. Explain to myself what a mess I have made out of this marriage. And finally, grab the chance of building my own home alone and away with my kids, happy and hopeful that tomorrow will be brighter! :)

going going gone gone

it was just a few weeks ago that i was so happy having found a sweet friend on the net.

Today, i opened my eyes to the truth that we are just attracted to each other and i cannot keep up and cope up with his strange requests anymore.

So there, it was such a wonderful experience to have met him and then say bye bye.

Going, going, gone gone.......................