"peace"

"christmas time"
Peace and quiet,festive but calm.
What's the spirit?

Peace is what I long for in my heart and in my mind.
I searched for myself and found me, sometimes too stiff, and
at times too crazy so I cry out loud.

If maybe one of these days I'll open my heart....
I hope to find peace.

"security"

evryone wants to feel secured about something or someone.

I find security from simple things since i don't get in from someone.
I find security from my bags,my shirts,my blanket,my friends.myself.

But most of all,I find security from HIM :)

KARMA

Should I call it KARMA?

My last day at the NGO work was December 9.I was so sad and hopeless because
I'm losing a job at this time of the year.

Thursday, 8th of December I got a call from a call center in Makati.I passed the
phone interview. I was scheduled for an exam on December 12.

I prayed hard and said,"Lord if this is where you want me to be, take me there."
The exam was difficult and it was my first time to apply in a call center.
I got the job at 4:15 pm.Happy me!!!!!

a matter of choice

it is just a matter of choice,

be happy or sad, be successful or not etc.
everything is just a matter of choice. I chose
to keep on pouring what's on my mind thru blogging.

Until now I am still here because I chose to keep
living. I dont know when I could start loving again.
What matters to me now is that i live for my kids and
myself. I don't remember having cursed someone because
I believe in karma. A choice not to feel is something
that bothers me.Who knows? This one will kill me, after
having gone thru a lot, that is all that could stop me.

If I can buy happiness I'll save a lot and buy plenty of happiness.
If I can save love, I will.
If I can just close my eyes now and be i paradise, I will.

Everything is a matter of choice......

alone and free

when will i be alone and free?

no way i could tell how soon this can be.

as my fingers type these words, my mind is too busy
finding the right answer.

moving on to the next chapter of my life.finding the right path. crossing the many roads to success.

could it just be that i am day dreaming?

opposites

hungry but full

asleep but awake

happy but sad

old but young

great but duh?

bright but blue

near but far

old but new

one but many

pretty but ugly

when u say it,mean it,do it

when you say it,mean it,do it

when you say it,mean it, do it. It doesnt stop there.
Been there done that the usual line great men say.
Lucky that my memory bank keeps alot of happy and hoppy thoughts.
At times when I feel like I am a total wreck, have to look back
and dig some positive stuff from my memory bank. Somehow,it seems
quite ok for even at least a moment.

Where do I begin to pick up the pieces and fix the puzzle?
Butterflies in my tummy, aaaaaarrrrg........

More often than not,I stop when I feel that my answer would just
bring me great pain,load me more with tons and tons of hurting inside.

In the mean time got to continue holding on to my only hero,
MYSELF.........

too late the hero

too late the hero

Wish I never have to re-do this thing againbut now
I am cause i'm left with no choice.

Questions come flodding my mind,it never stops.
I hope the hero comes just right on time. So I won't die
just like that.

Am I too trusting or too dumb that's why people take advantage
of my kindness?

The answer is.......I am both. Well let's just wait for KARMA.

hate good byes

It's my last working day at the NGO tomorrow.

Hate goodbyes,really.Nothing is permanent anyway, so one must go.
It lessens the pain when one says good bye and promises to cross the same
path again. Whether it be planned or not. It is a small world after all as the
famous song states.

It is a two way thing,hellos and goodbyes. It's time to say good bye,don't know
why (singing it out loud).

So now I could understand this,the trouble with hello is GOOD BYE.

Good bye.......

all screwed up?

maybe it would seem like i'm all screwed up.

well, i'm not :) life is like that, ins and outs, ups and downs so
round and round i go traversing a new path.

just when i thought i've got an angel, i woke up from a deep sleep
and it was just a dream. how petty my needs are i must say, someone to
share some moments with when all i got is me.someone who makes a
difference in my life without being extra special but by just being himself.
somebody find me please....i am a missing miss.

and when i am found, i'm free at last.
free from the pain i keep in my heart.