What do I get out of curiosity?

Yes,what do I get out of curiosity?.

A lot of good and bad things maybe, ha ha.

I can only find out if i try.Like for example, how does it really feel to
let the rain fall down on your cheek.One night, I was on my way home when it rained hard and I do not have my umbrella with me. All soaked up, really wet from head
to toe.The nicest part.I closed my eyes while walking alone under the rain and yes
it never felt that good. It was a wonderful experience.

How will it be if I sing alone at a karaoke bar?

Got a sandwich and a coke to complete my dinner that night. I stopped by at a nearest sing-along bar, tried my luck,sang my heart out.
It made me smile all night long until I got home.


These are just two of some What ifs and how will it bes?

a friend or an acquaintance?

I just had this question on my mind today.

A FRIEND OR AN ACQUAINTANCE?

So how do i differentiate these two?

FRIEND ACQUAINTANCE

kind civil

caring ?

thoughtful ?

always there for you ?

honest ?

knows when to be kidding around ?

etc. etc.


So i really do not need to ask again the difference :)

a friday like no other :)

What can I say?

Today is a friday like no other fridays i had ever had in my life, to date.
What is most amusing is the way I had experience engaging in a "one time good time activity"...

No regrets of finding out what it is like to be free doing what i want at this point and time. I named myself "missing miss" for reasons I cannot explain. Well maybe, there had been things I was not able to try then when I was younger, by the way I am now 32 and I feel that I am still the missing miss i had always been.

So what does it take to feel free? A lot of guts I may say.The will to face the unexplainable, ha ha. Yes, and tons and tons of courage.

Goody goody just want to say I had a great day! Could be smiling in my sleep.:)

hey, hey today is a super duh duh FRIDAY!

today, i left the office early to find some time for myself.
hopped in here at a net cafe, did not ever thought that there are noisy
mad out loud net cafe days hu hu hu.

I usually come here to update my blog. since i'm outnumbered by
big boys enjoying their favorite pc games, luck was a bit near too.
got earphones, a few nice selected music and wahla!I m writing again.
whew!

while i'm waiting for a dear friend to be on line thought i'd better wait in writing.

so what did get out of leaving the office early? huh? nice nice nice or should i say
noise noise noise ha ha ha.right, lovely and crisp ha ha ha.

later tonight, would not know what's next.I'd love to go to a sing-along bar but no one to be with me, so maybe i can just sing in the shower later.

hey, hey today is a super duh duh FRIDAY!

what about a cup of coffee and some chat?

today, i was thinking of how to ask a friend out so i could chat with him.
well, i told him i'll treat him for coffee and he get to chat with me about anything.
maybe he was too busy, something went wrong, this friend just did not show up.

i see nothing wrong with asking a friend to go out sometime, it is just normal and being vocal. well i do feel tired and maybe need a back massage.still havent found the right place.

what about asking him to treat me to snacks or dinner instead.
o ohh. gotta go, really have to put and end to this......


til next post :)

the voice within

there's a voice within
telling me to reach out
asking me to be patient
moving me, directing me to a place
i have never been

there's a voice within
making me smile at my faults
pulling me out of this "drowning glory"
saying all that i ever wanted to be
is all that i am inside of me

there's a voice within
anxiously waiting to be seen......

gotta be me

Yesterday, a dear friend asked me out to be with her and a friend for dinner. It was a fine evening for me I may say. Enjoyed the drinks nad music at CUBA, the band was great and the audience too were all having fun.

I got home a bit late but somehow relaxed. I hope to be going out alone sometime but I fear that people might have mistaken me for beeing a hooker. It's a duh? I would not want to be named like that.

Anyway, maybe one time I'll try to go out alone and meet nice people.Gotta be me......

i'm exhausted...........

today, i was able to clean up my desk (a bit) thank heavens!

oh yes, i have a bad cold i'm exhausted and i'm dead tired..........
i found time reading afew blogs of other great men and women here, it is such a
perfect journey into other's lives, the simplest and cheapest way i know.

I felt that somehow, i was a part of their lives.

have to go now....will try squeezing my brains for a blog again.....

where is this ending

today, I'm in one of those balancing acts of my life, here at a net cafe trying to loosen up.

what have i got to do to make things okay, at least appear okay.
I never have readied myself for such great ordeal. never imagined living
this way,sad, devastated holding on to myself until i win the game.

never did imagined how it was not to cry my heart out, spill out or just plainly say.........................aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg......
i want enough of this, it's killing me and still i can breathe. alive but dead how can that be?

all these, a life for someone who just wants to be happy............
just that, be happy and not to hurt anyone...........

my only question is.......where is this ending?when? How painful it is to be keeping all these to myself, absorbing it all until i busrt, into tears i hope then just let it all pass me by. Like a story that ends the way i ever would want it to end, then start with a new one......aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg!